Years later ... Same Sick Feeling Still There

I was sued in Superior Court in 2010, just days before I moved 5 hours away. 
Shortly after moving a found out that I was expecting and would be unable to make the trips required to court, so I was forced to retain a lawyer, and have not heard from him since January 2011.

Calling costs $50-$75, just to have him or his assistant review the message, but today I just couldn't stop myself from calling to check the status of the lawsuit. 

And now I as I wait for the response, that horrible sick feeling I had from dealing with the plaintiff has completely returned. 

Without going into great detail (cause lets face it, the only people reading this already know what happened), let me just explain that the person suing me was a former neighbour.  Living next to her was a constant source of overwhelming fear that I faced everyday.  It was to the point that I had trouble leaving my home because of that fear and as I was on the phone today with the lawyer's assistant, it all came back in a rushing wave.

Almost 2 years later, almost 3 of not seeing the neighbour, and the anxiety and fear feels just as fresh as it did while in the midst of the horrible things she did.

When we went to criminal court on charges against her, I told the crown attorney that I didn't care what happened, I wasn't pushing for her to go to jail or anything, I just wanted her out of my life.  I just never wanted to feel that same horrible feeling again.

Two weeks later we were back in criminal court defending ourselves on charges she brought against us, and she pushed as hard as she could to try to ensure that we be punished to the full extent the law would allow.  She took the stand was not only unable to substantiate any of her claims, but was caught in multiple lies.  The judge gave her a stern warning that if the case was to continue that she would be in danger of being charged with perjury.  Yet, she kept going, still wanting to convince everyone of our wrong doing.  The judge and crown stopped the trial and immediately dismissed all charges.

I thought that would be the end of it.  I wish that had been the end of it.  Then months later, this lawsuit for $100 000 was filed against me, and almost two years later she is still in my life, still making me feel anxious and scared.  

It's just not right.

I really hope this is over soon.