Yesterday's Status on Facebook:
So .. Doing a work out in 20 minute bits isn't gonna do a whole lot ... but it's not even 8 am and I'm about to start number three. Trying to make up for the fact that the weather is terrible .. so we won't be walking/jogging today.
Yes. You read that right .. I said jogging. And I'm actually enjoying it! My kid is a great motivator! I never once ever thought I would say that about jogging! (oka...y .. and what I'm doing right now isn't really jogging ... it's jogging for about a minute and a half then sputtering, choking and wheezing for the next 3 minutes till I fall to the ground, fairly sure I'm gonna have a heart attack....
But, minutes later I'm up & doing it again!! (used to take me a lot longer to get up ... then there was no way I was doing that again!)
There doesn't seem to be a whole lot of weight coming off, but I can see a difference in myself .. especially compared to a picture I have of me in December. And my clothes are fitting better... and best yet .. when I actually try to suck my gut in .. it Goes!! Not in far enough ... but it's at least trying again!
Yeah, I believe in celebrating the small things.
Happy Saturday My Friends!
Yes. You read that right .. I said jogging. And I'm actually enjoying it! My kid is a great motivator! I never once ever thought I would say that about jogging! (oka...y .. and what I'm doing right now isn't really jogging ... it's jogging for about a minute and a half then sputtering, choking and wheezing for the next 3 minutes till I fall to the ground, fairly sure I'm gonna have a heart attack....
But, minutes later I'm up & doing it again!! (used to take me a lot longer to get up ... then there was no way I was doing that again!)
There doesn't seem to be a whole lot of weight coming off, but I can see a difference in myself .. especially compared to a picture I have of me in December. And my clothes are fitting better... and best yet .. when I actually try to suck my gut in .. it Goes!! Not in far enough ... but it's at least trying again!
Yeah, I believe in celebrating the small things.
Happy Saturday My Friends!
Friend One: lol...good for you!
Friend Two: you make me laugh :) Good job my friend...keep it up!!
Me:Its frustrating not seeing that damn scale move!
It's worse cause my scale is screwed up .. and is like 8 or 7 .. or something pound heavier .. so every time I step on I'm still just over that 200 mark... which means I'm back to my 30lbs down
(lol I cheated for a few days .. and when I cheat .. I cheat to win! .. I eat EVERY FRICKING THING that doesn't looking it might put up a struggle!)
Anyway ..I figured out that's exactly why diets don't work for me. It was the same as when I was trying to quit smoking ... I couldn't 'cheat' and have just one... I cheated and smoked 5 times more than ever ... then finally admitted to starting again.
So..I just decided to not quit smoking. I just wouldn't have a cigarette until I REALLY needed it... but when the craving hit I'd just do this one little thing first ... then ... I started adding a lot of little things. Suddenly I realized I didn't need to smoke. I set my quit day after practicing that delay tactic over and over.
Worked. :)
I'm doing the same thing with dieting. I'm NOT dieting. I'm just not gonna have an ice cap this trip. I'm filling most of my plate with veggies, and having a sip of Randy's pop rather than a full can or more of my own.
I FEEL different. A lot of people have commented that I look different. But that damn scale will not pass that stupid 200 mark!
It's worse cause my scale is screwed up .. and is like 8 or 7 .. or something pound heavier .. so every time I step on I'm still just over that 200 mark... which means I'm back to my 30lbs down
(lol I cheated for a few days .. and when I cheat .. I cheat to win! .. I eat EVERY FRICKING THING that doesn't looking it might put up a struggle!)
Anyway ..I figured out that's exactly why diets don't work for me. It was the same as when I was trying to quit smoking ... I couldn't 'cheat' and have just one... I cheated and smoked 5 times more than ever ... then finally admitted to starting again.
So..I just decided to not quit smoking. I just wouldn't have a cigarette until I REALLY needed it... but when the craving hit I'd just do this one little thing first ... then ... I started adding a lot of little things. Suddenly I realized I didn't need to smoke. I set my quit day after practicing that delay tactic over and over.
Worked. :)
I'm doing the same thing with dieting. I'm NOT dieting. I'm just not gonna have an ice cap this trip. I'm filling most of my plate with veggies, and having a sip of Randy's pop rather than a full can or more of my own.
I FEEL different. A lot of people have commented that I look different. But that damn scale will not pass that stupid 200 mark!
This all just reminded me of when I was a teenager. Funny how that seems so long ago in some way, yet in others like yesterday. weird. Anyway. Back on topic it reminded me of stepping on the scales with my friends. I was really big when I was young.. I went through puberty very young.. and was quite tall .. I'm 5'9 now, and have usually been one of the tallest women in any situation.
Anyway... They all stepped on the scales and weighed like 98, 92, 103lbs .. something like that ... I step on the scale and I was 152!!!! Of that number, I am SURE! lol My friend who was 103 wasn't a small girl, she was quite a bit shorter than me and before I stepped on the scale, I'd thought she was a fair bit bigger than I was. But I was almost FIFTY POUNDS MORE!
Lol .. I had the same experience recently when talking with a friend who is trying to lose weight too. She's doing a fantastic job working towards her goal, we can all see a big difference in her ... and while we're talking about what she's doing, she mentions that she doesn't wanna pass the 150 mark.
It felt like public school all over again! She didn't mean anything by the comment, I know that!! But for a spilt second there .. I'm reminded that right now I'm sitting 50lbs over her worst weight! Uggh ... how freakin fat am I ?!?!?
Then I remember why I haven't owned a scale since I lost all that weight 9 years ago...
**** After I had my second son 9 years ago I went up to 220lbs or so. Within months I lost a HUGE amount of weight, I went down to about 105 which is a very unhealthy weight for me. I can see that when I look at pictures from then.****
I can't look at my weight and feel good ever. No one ever walks around bragging about being 150. But when I don't look at the scale, I am not 150! I am fitting into my favorite jeans and my tush looks good! I'm not 150lbs ... I'm feeling and looking fit and confident.
I'm done with the scale! ....well not done.. cause I can't help but wanna know ... lol... but I'm done feeling sad that the stupid red needle is blind to how much better I look and feel!
And this morning I took half naked pictures! lol
My best friend worked very hard to loose weight this past couple years, and she sent me a pic of her in a couple swim suits, trying to pick one. I could not believe the difference!!! She was never super big ... but the difference is amazing ... I wish she had a before and after picture!
So I took my in the middle pic... I'm down about 30lbs, my goal feeling is in about 50 more. I'm over a third of the way to my goal! :)
Anyway... They all stepped on the scales and weighed like 98, 92, 103lbs .. something like that ... I step on the scale and I was 152!!!! Of that number, I am SURE! lol My friend who was 103 wasn't a small girl, she was quite a bit shorter than me and before I stepped on the scale, I'd thought she was a fair bit bigger than I was. But I was almost FIFTY POUNDS MORE!
Lol .. I had the same experience recently when talking with a friend who is trying to lose weight too. She's doing a fantastic job working towards her goal, we can all see a big difference in her ... and while we're talking about what she's doing, she mentions that she doesn't wanna pass the 150 mark.
It felt like public school all over again! She didn't mean anything by the comment, I know that!! But for a spilt second there .. I'm reminded that right now I'm sitting 50lbs over her worst weight! Uggh ... how freakin fat am I ?!?!?
Then I remember why I haven't owned a scale since I lost all that weight 9 years ago...
**** After I had my second son 9 years ago I went up to 220lbs or so. Within months I lost a HUGE amount of weight, I went down to about 105 which is a very unhealthy weight for me. I can see that when I look at pictures from then.****
I can't look at my weight and feel good ever. No one ever walks around bragging about being 150. But when I don't look at the scale, I am not 150! I am fitting into my favorite jeans and my tush looks good! I'm not 150lbs ... I'm feeling and looking fit and confident.
I'm done with the scale! ....well not done.. cause I can't help but wanna know ... lol... but I'm done feeling sad that the stupid red needle is blind to how much better I look and feel!
And this morning I took half naked pictures! lol
My best friend worked very hard to loose weight this past couple years, and she sent me a pic of her in a couple swim suits, trying to pick one. I could not believe the difference!!! She was never super big ... but the difference is amazing ... I wish she had a before and after picture!
So I took my in the middle pic... I'm down about 30lbs, my goal feeling is in about 50 more. I'm over a third of the way to my goal! :)
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